Well, for those of you that have read my blog, you realize that I have been remarkably silent for the last two months. It’s not that I have run out of things to say. It’s just that with building the house, dealing with sick kids, the fall sick season, and a difficult personal decision,I have not really known how to put my feelings in writing.
As my preacher said in a recent sermon, everything changes. And 2012 has been a real year of change for me. Brian and I have been building a home for the last year. Ella has begun with 4-H. My youngest child started to school. My brother and I are mending fences. But the real change is the new job opportunity that was unexpected in my life. As of January 2013, I will no longer have my own primary care practice, but rather be a full time emergency room physician at our local hospital.
I want to set the record strait because I know there has been a lot said about this decision. I have been blessed in my practice. I work in a wonderful office with an awesome staff and great fellow physicians. The last eight years in my own practice have been and true gift from God in the relationships that I have been allowed to develop. Individuals and families have opened their lives to me and allowed me to be a part of a very special relationships, and I can only hope that I have been able to help these families and patients through medical, physical, or psychological issues. My role as a family physician in my home town has truly been an honor.
However, this role has also had a personal cost. As most of you know that read this blog, I am a mother of three small children. They are nine, seven, and four. What you may not know is I went back to work with my younger two children when they were only three weeks old. I returned to work after a Hysterectomy in three weeks as well. I miss school plays, party’s, and weekend family get togethers. And this is ok, this is part of my job. There can be days where I may not even see my kids. But, this year, I was offered a new job, a full time job in the emergency room that has shift work with no call. So, despite how much I knew it would hurt my patient’s, in order to be a better Mom, I took the job.
I want to thank each and every person who has trusted me with their care over the years. I want to thank my fellow physicians for their support and their knowledge, and their support during my own personal illnesses. I hope that everyone can understand that this was not a choice that I was seeking but rather a choice that will be a better change for me as a mother.